These are the decisions I'm actively making now. These things, day by day, are my becoming.
All those things I said I'd do when I was younger-move to Boston, get a tattoo, vacation in Europe, have a job that I'm passionate about, wake up in the morning without thinking "what the fuck are you doing," I'm not doing any of them.
But now I'm actively not doing them. I chose all these things. I'm still choosing them, day by day. These things are my choice. To stay in Kansas City, to pay off my debt and buy a bed rather than vacation, to stay at this job. I pick these things every day. I could wake up tomorrow and change it all if I wanted, but I don't. These are things I want.
But god damn, what I'd give for some guts to do it.
P.S. Dave Annabele in Brothers & Sisters in his Army uniform. You're welcome.
