So this is the new year...

Happy New Year!

Holy shit, it's 2013!

I had a fantastic NYE and was more than thrilled to spend it with some fantastic people, including J.  We both took the day off work and sat inside watching Homeland and eating pizza while the snow fell.  We made snack foods and our friends came over to drink champagne and countdown til midnight and watch fireworks and take shots.  It was actually perfect. 

I know that a lot of people say that resolutions are bullshit and if you want to change your life you should just do it instead of waiting for an arbitrary date on a calendar and blah blah blah.  However, it just makes the actual most sense to do it at that time.  Here are a few highlights from my list of goals for the year: run a 5k every month, read 2 books every month, & complete NDJ. 

So today I bought my 2013 calendar and planner and ate my first vegan bacon burger and didn't drink at all and started a new 5k training program.  So here we go.  We can do this.  We can totally fucking do this.

Sending you love and light in the new year. 

It's been a long December and there's reason to believe/maybe this year will be better than the last

I hate New Year's. I always have and I probably always will. It is my least favorite holiday.

There I said it. I think it's way too hyped up. Maybe I hype it up. I feel like there's pressure for there to be some deep reflection on the past year and a profound change for the upcoming year. I feel like there's pressure for the night to be some sort of magical champagne firework glitter explosion.

However, a year ago on this night my life did start completely changing. So I can't act this day hasn't held meaning. Although I will say that I thought things from that night would turn out differently but that's probably another story. Reflecting back I'm still grateful (see my Reverb Healing post). And my life truly is completely different than it was a year ago. I live in a different apartment in a different city with a different job and different friends and I'd even say that I'm different too.

So this year I'm going to stop feeling like this night has to be something it's not. And I'll stop trying to force change that doesn't want to come tomorrow. Maybe I'll just be greatful.

Fierce love, baby, fierce love.