I'm kinda older than I was when I reveled without a care

January, some things...

I have been sober for 21 days today. 
I've seen a psychologist and a doctor to start getting my anxiety under control.
I'm obsessed with green smoothies.
I'm flirting with the idea of doing the Heartland 30k series & a half marathon but at this point I've barely gotten used to even saying that sentence, let alone moving forward.
I'm now in my second coaching course and am moving forward with my coaching practice.
My motto for 2014 is: calm, confident, accepting, & forgiving. 
I'm doing yoga once a week with that in mind.
I'm studying for my AIC designation with a lofty goal of completing it by June.
So far I've read Divergent and am currently reading Insurgent. 
I ran a 5k on New Year's Day and finished with a time faster than my December 5k but proceeded to vomit immediately afterwards. 
My next 5k is next week, weather permitting.
Speaking of the weather, I hate it. 
I saw American Hustle, I might be the only person ever that actually didn't like it.
I saw Walter Mitty, I thought it was cute.

Eff Yeah 2013!

Set a 5k PR
Ran two 4 mile races
Ran a few 5ks
Set a 4 mile PR
Quit my second job
Read a bunch of books
Got my 33
Went to Colorado
Went to Mexico
Completed NDJ
Got my AINS
Got my AIS
Started my AIC
Completed a graduate coaching course with an A
Ate vegan for a week


Pretty cool year I'd say. 

We'll never be royals...

Hiiiiiii....it's been a few months!

In August I decided it was a perfect idea to take a graduate coaching course, study for my salary grade test at work, run a 5k every month, and still work my full time job and live my normal life.  Totally fucking crazy right?  Right.  I was able to follow through with everything except for my test.  I didn't pass.  By one question.  I know, I KNOW.  One question meant the difference to me between epic failure and amazing success.  But it's not.  I aced my college grad course and set a 5k PR. I worked hard at progressing at work.  One question doesn't make that epic distinction that I thought it did. 

So then I went to Mexico for a week.

And now I'm back. 

And I retake that test next week. 

My August Favorite Things

Orange is the New Black: Five reasons to watch & the best reason to watch.

Timehop App: There's an amazing motivational dinosaur plus it reminds you that one year ago today @xCarling said "I can't wait for September 11th.  For football, not terrorists."

A Storm of Swords by George R.R. Martin.  Game of Thrones is about thinking someone is a main character and then that person being brutally murdered.  Yup.

This song.  I could listen to it all day.  Most days.  It's so catchy.  And versatile, I can run to it or shower to it. 

Healthy hair.  I visited this hair stylist who was like oh god looking at my hair and was like let me help you get your life together.  So then I spent a ton of money on hair products, read a bunch of articles about healthy hair, & am now on a shampoo cleanse which I hear gets worse before it gets better. 

Drunk History. 


What are your favorite things this month? 

(August was hard right?)

2:05 p.m. in Tokyo

I am waiting for it to be 2:05 p.m. in Tokyo.  That means J will land in Tokyo and he can message me after 10 1/2 hours that he's fine.  I guess this isn't all about me.  I mean, J just spent 10 1/2 hours on a plane, preceded by 3 1/2 hours on a plane and will be followed by 5 1/2 hours on a plane.  His total travel time is TWENTY FUCKING SIX AND A HALF HOURS.  That's a long time. 

I wonder what it would be like to be able to think like a normal person and not feel like the world's going to end before it's 2:05 p.m. in Tokyo.  From the outside looking in, you could never understand it.  From the inside looking out, I can never explain it.

I guess I'm going back to school?  Or at least I think I'm going back to school.  I feel like I should be doing things, you know?  Going back to school is probably not the answer.  Everyone's like "oh yeah, that's cool, I'd like to get a master's degree one day too!' I already have a master's degree you a-hole.  I don't know.  We'll revisit this topic later.

I'm drinking while typing this.  On my new laptop.  It's so tiny!  I shouldn't be drinking and typing.  Have we ever discussed my record of drinking while using laptops?  It's bad.  But I promise I'm being careful.  No, seriously, I really promise this time.  This laptop is not even paid off yet.  (Don't even give me that look.) 

Thanks to the lovely people @timehop, I know that three years ago today I tweeted "You were going to conquer the world." I want so badly to know what that quote is from & who it was about.  I googled and the google says it's from It's a Wonderful Life or Pinky & The Brain.  I don't think it was from either, doesn't sound like me in July.  Let me know if you know.

Also, I want to audition for drunk history.  I love drinking, laying on the floor, & telling stories.  I would be fucking fantastic. 

When did it become July?

Holy shit, you guys, it's JULY. 

I actually had to go back a few posts to find out what my new year's resolutions word (we're fucked, right??).  So my goals were to run a 5k every month, read 2 books every month, & finish NDJ. 

Maybe let's just Eff Yeah! list this intstead.

January-Groundhog Run 5k (worst time ever), completed NDJ
February-Completed Sweetheart Run 4 mile (fantastic run & the fastest time ever), passed AINS 22
March-I quit my second job!
April-I don't know, you guys, it snowed so maybe let's just leave this month alone
May-Colorado Vacation, passed AINS 23B
June-Color Run, Glow Run, AINS 23C

I can't be sure when I read what so here's just what I've read this year:
Dad is Fat, Wild, Gone Girl, Let's Pretend This Never Happened, Waiting to Be Heard, Tiny Beautiful Things, & How to Be a Woman.   So apparently more like 1 a month. 

I've signed up for Jingle in July 5k, am looking at vacations for October, & looked into starting school in the fall for a graduate certificate. 

I'm trying to build a life that I really love living and I'm learning that it's not as easy as step 1, 2, 3, done, you love your life now!  That it's more of a process.

She's up all night to get lucky

Well, it's been awhile.  But I've been busy. 

1.  I went to opening day (yes, baseball).  I've been to 4 Royals game with two more planned on Saturday & Tuesday.  One of which was in the Royals suites (thanks J!) which was fantastic.  How can you not love being at the ballpark on beautiful day?

2.  J & I went to Colorado May 16-20.  Also fantastic.  Mountains (I went to the top of Pike's Peak), amazing food (macaroni!  alaskan reindeer hot dogs!  elk jalapeno sausage!  fried chicken!  more macaroni!) , AND SO MUCH BEER.  Seriously, there are more craft breweries in Colorado than anywhere else in the US.  I posted 236 pictures to Facebook.  I had an f'ing amazing time. 

3.  I met Jim Gaffigan, Cheryl Strayed, & Jenny Lawson (The Bloggess) and had them sign my copies of their books.  I am a total fan girl and cannot form words when meeting authors.  Besides me being a major dork, it was pretty cool.

4. Speaking of books, I compiled my list of summer reading: Dad is Fat, Waiting to be Heard, The Kite Runner, Jeneration X, I Can Barely Take Care of Myself, Gone Girl, & How to be a Woman are on the list.  I also have Barred to You & Torch on my audiobook list.

5. My 26th birthday was a blast and even though I still can't drink tequila (well thanks to that and cinco de mayo), it was a wonderful time.  I am super grateful to have amazing friends & family that celebrated with me.  Both J & my mom gave me electric toothbrushes so I'll take that as a hint and I guess that's what being 26 is all about.

6. The weather is FINALLY warming up.  In December I went to a Chiefs game and it was 75 degrees and I wore a tshirt.  The first week of May it was 30 degrees and we got 2 inches of snow.  WTF is that about right?  I seriously can barely function in the snow so I've had about zero motivation to do anything but sit inside in my snuggie watching the West Wing eating cheese for the past 4 months. 

7.  On Friday I celebrated (?) 3 years at my current job.  It's been a rollercoaster. 

8.  I'm really trying to get my shit together.